Life, Anxiety and Beautiful Peonies

I've been blogging for almost two years and I think it's about time I open up and get a little personal.  My life isn't all pretty pictures and perfectly staged projects and rooms.  I'm going to be completely honest and let you all in on a little secret.  I struggle with anxiety, tension headaches and migraines.   Like full on panic attacks and migraines that consist of laying in a dark room only being able to open my eyes and move enough to vomit in a near by bucket.  Attractive, huh?

Just about anything from getting lost, making decisions, spending large amounts of money or getting overwhelmed can trigger an attack or migraine.   Sometimes it comes on quick and sometimes it lingers for days or even weeks.  I tend to get overwhelmed and stressed out easily, which is a daily struggle with work, taking care of my family and keeping up with our home.  Lately, there have been far more bad days than good, which makes it hard to enjoy my kids and keep up on day to day life.  I feel like I'm failing as a mother and wife.  My kids and husband deserve much more out of me than I can give.  I'm tired, have chronic headaches, my back and neck muscles are constantly tight and I'm just plain irritable.  Ask my husband, he'll tell you.

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